Even when I’m irritable you don’t lose your patience with me.
I hope you know that my heart’s in the right place but it’s my brain that disagrees.
I say stupid things, things I don’t mean,
or I shrug my shoulders, and don’t answer properly.
I never ask you how your day’s been, or how you feel,
Even though I think it, I’m so used to being quiet really.
I’ve never been the good one at talking, that’s just not me,
But people say I’m ok at writing so I guess we’ll see –
– If you get it. I’m not doing any of this intentionally,
I’m not purposely being rude or trying hard to be lazy
I don’t like doing nothing all day and just watching TV
It’s become boring and I only do it while I wait for people to email me,
Unemployment is harder than I expected so just bear with me,
While I try to piece my life together, and figure out how to be,
Someone who I look up to, someone like you, someone who is
totally different from the boring, lifeless and annoying, little me.